my head keeps saying you need to finish your paper it’s due tomorrow you don’t have time for this but my heart won’t listen and it’s becoming a problem
the most frustrating thing is that i’m at the point where i’m so afraid of messing up and failing and never doing anything with my life that i just put things off to the point that i’m constantly messing up and failing and i feel like i probably won’t ever do anything with my life
so i’m pretty sure i won’t be coming back for the next season of scandal
honestly there are so many gross things about what the show has been doing but the thing that stuck out to me the most in the episode was the way they completely took mellie’s rape away from her and made it all about how it affected fitz
i know that’s not a new thing for television to do and honestly the second they introduced the plot we all knew that’s where it was going but god it still hit me when they just actually blatantly did it with no pretenses at all
mellie’s rape now belongs to fitz, it’s all about his pain rather than hers. and the thing is that a lot of fans seem very sympathetic to fitz, and condemn mellie, all over her rape. she’s the victim, she’s been the victim for years and years with no support from fitz, and yet fitz is still getting more sympathy from the fans.
mellie wasn’t even the one who told fitz, olivia did. (and god, what they’re doing to liv pisses me off too because she was amazing, but now she seems to have disappeared into fitz’s story as well and it’s really awful because i fell in love with her in episode one and she’s what kept me watching and what they’re doing to her sucks)
mellie did not get to choose whether fitz knew about his father raping her, and then people come along and act like he “had a right to know”. it’s mellie’s experience - she gets to tell him when she wants to, which honestly at this point why would she ever? fitz has done nothing but treat her like shit since day one.
and that’s not even the worst part - the worst part comes during fitz’s breakdown at the end. because what do we see as part of his breakdown? a flashback to mellie’s rape. because yeah, that’s totally his pain, that’s totally his experience to agonize over. i know the point was him feeling guilty but they could have shown him feeling guilty over the way he treated her, not her experience that he is now getting to claim for his own.
also the ever-so-thoughtful, “i’m going to leave her…but not right now cause that would make me a bad guy”. um, yeah fuck off.
god there’s so many things i want to say and i’m too angry to be able to say them all here, but if anyone wants to come yell about fitz with me being an abusive asshole who deserves no sympathy from anyone ever i’m all over that.
UGH I QUIT I QUIT THIS STUPID SHOW I HATE EVERYTHING
LIV DON’T DO IT DON’T YOU DO IT DON’T TELL FITZ ABOUT MELLIE THIS IS NOT HAPPENING NO MAYBE IF I JUST NEVER TAKE THE EPISODE OFF OF PAUSE IT WON’T HAPPEN
"what about mellie?"
"what about her?"
OH MY GOD IF YOU FUCKING FEEL THAT WAY WHY DID YOU THROW A TANTRUM WHEN YOU FOUND OUT SHE WAS HAVING AN AFFAIR WHEN YOU’VE BEEN DOING THE SAME THING FOR YEARS GO TO HELL ASSHOLE GOD I HATE FITZ SO MUCH
i do not understand people who use the whole “adam and eve, not adam and steve” in a serious context
didn’t adam and eve, like, fuck everything up in a really big way??
okay man you go do your adam and eve thing i’ll be over here kissing ladies and not pissing off God
ugh the winter solider was so good and people’s opinions of it are so bad